Numb

Something about this video grasps a deep part of my emotions. I have watched it over and over for a week, trying to figure out what it is.
In between the violent and desperate movements, I see a girl...just one girl.
Girl America.
Tired.
Numb.
Unwilling to feel because she already felt so much.
She is desperate.
She is over it.
She is tired of being "the norm", and angry at being looked at as one thing only...
It is as if she is tired of being used.

I see these girls. And I know that they are not wearing a lot.
But I almost feel as if it wasn't their choice, rather it represents the fact that so many want to see skin alone, and not their true selves.
I see them being tossed from mattress to mattress and feel like it speaks of a life they lived and a lie they were told.

I see desperation.

"I-I feel so numb"

I see their numbness. I see it in pieces of myself. I see it in girls I've met from all over America.

And it makes me hunger for the Solution, the awakening of Life beyond what is numb.
It makes me want Jesus more.
It makes me want to be Him to those who truly are...
numb.